Roomie pic covered in snow! Also she makes me look tall which I thought was impossible ;)
look at the cat phone i won
i wannnnaaa visssiiittt
praying for you. xx
you guys are seriously awesome thank you so much
"you’re not a girl,
you’re a waltz
you’re a canopy bed
you’re June to August
you’re the back and forth sway of the hammock all day."
The Avett Brothers, Smoke In Our Lights
Lego House || Ed Sheeran
babe & i too
"I would rather be what God chose to make me than the most glorious creature that I could think of; for to have been thought about, born in God’s thought, and then made by God is the dearest, grandest, and most precious thing in all thinking."
the past 38 hours have been the toughest I’ve been through in a long, long time.
10pm friday night i randomly got flu symptoms, 4am saturday morning i couldn’t walk it was so bad. i had to call into work on a day we were helping host a men’s breakfast, feeling like i was helplessly leaving them. saturday was the worst sick day I’ve ever experienced. i couldn’t keep liquids in my system, so let alone medication of any kind. i would sleep for an hour and be up for 10 minutes. it was like my body’s own numbing. migraine and chills and fever and throwing up. i dont remember much. my shoulder was hurting more than usual and my sinuses were a mess. drew came over and brought me my fav flowers, i couldn’t understand why he drove so far to bring strawberries and flowers and listen to my dad talk for 15 minutes while i kept my eyes closed the whole time. he looked at me later and said “happy 3 month.” i just cried.
the rest of the night continued, i got progressively better through the sleep repetitions. i woke up almost better this morning.
except for that excruciating back pain..
i have to admit I’ve cried more than id like to admit today. probably once an hour. out of pain, frustration, hopelessness.. a lot of reasons. something is wrong with my shoulder and all i can say is: pain. i called in today. and for tomorrow. i put my two weeks in at my job last tuesday so i could get some personal health back… now i cant work my last full-time week at the best job, i have no way of making more money, and my body is shutting down. the hard thing is ive been through this a few times with my body. i dont. want. to do this again.
i need to be uplifted. in spirit, in prayer, at heart, in my mind. i just need to be told its all going to work out. my parents think ill be better soon. i dont. i dont know what will happen. i cant walk, sit down, move around or sometimes breathe deep without back pain. i only say this to share with you so you can be here with me. i adore you guys and i know you love me.
be with me. pray over me when you think of it. thank you for thinking of me.